Menopause Is it a curse or a new beginning?

Im on the edge of 45 and this is a topic I have never wanted to discuss but it is quite necessary it seems to be disrupting my life and the very Peace in my core .. I feel as though the woman I once was is shedding .. where is she going ? Who comes after her .. ? Will she be pretty .. will she be strong like the woman that once stood like a lion over her cubs .. Will it weaken her or make her strong ? How longs it gonna take .. I feel like the Wolfman right now as I write this .. im undergoing Hormone therapy which is apparently risky and there seems to be no right answer to the benefits of it .. Quality with risk .. or dry up .. thats pretty much our choice as women .. so it feels .. I have not begun to even delve into this topic because I had hoped it would pass before I noticed it showing .. Its showing like a Huge Neon Light .. Men buy sports cars and we get the needle .. and thats okay .. im gonna embrace my journey on a positive note .. I started with a broom .. and started sweeping out the cobwebs of the past .. the dang broom kept coming off but I just keep putting it back .. I figure if I keep sweeping Ill look back and everything will come out nice and clean .. were just experiencing some dust for now .. literally and figuratively .. Until later my friends ..